Monday, December 29, 2008
hey all..
if you realised, i seem to have disappeared from earth for some time alr.
actually im at m'sia with my buddies..
it may seem fun and all but yeah..things are not what they seem to be.
this trip made me know many things. some good, some bad.
now i can only describe my feelings with 1 word: EMPTY
looking at others, i realise how different i am in various aspect of life.
though i might envy them, but i still love my life.
now, i lost about quite alot of things.
intrinsic and extrinsic alike.
some things can be bought again, but some cant.
when those things are lost, it may never be found back again.
sighs. all i can say is that im sorry.
maybe im a bad guy. maybe...surely..
10:33 PM
Sunday, December 21, 2008
another batch of CIs passed out..
with a blink of an eye, im alr a CI for 1.5 years.
yesterday i saw the video flashback of the new batch and had some thoughts of my own.
- i was once like those ppl, went into CIBTC with no idea of what we are getting.
- at that time, i felt that being a CI was a major thing and i cant abuse this chance.
- but i realised that i've changed.. i find that i dont treasure my authority as much as i used to.
- maybe i the feeling i had for being a CI was overstated, the change in me was obvious but not as drastic as i thought it was.
- there is virtually no difference in being a CI and a normal person, but some ppl really make that difference so obvious that it kind of irritates me.
to a particular group of ppl:
- we all carry the same "diamond" on our shoulders, what differentiates your group and ours?
- we treat your group with respect because we're nice, not because we have to.
- hope the relevant ppl understands this...
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
on a lighter note, yesterday was really fun with the area18 gang dominating the helpers section once again..
laughed, joked and got teased several times.
overall the day ended with loads of laughter and i got damn tired from all the laughings.
many unexpected things happened and i truly believe they all happened for a reason.
havent felt so good for a long time, thanks for the acknowledgements! =D
roughly wrapped up the day, details are kept in.. MY HEART! HAHAHAHAHA!!!
DIN TAI FUNG later for dinner!
WEIZI =)
2:37 PM
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
- i’ve installed some of the windows live suite.
- now im blogging through windows live writer, quite cool you know..hehe =P
- dont have to login blogger anymore!
- the new windows live messenger that comes with the suite works pretty well too.
- cool interface, but no messenger plus.. will try installing that again later.
- cheers to windows live!]
bulleted form. LOL
12:32 PM
Sunday, December 14, 2008
life of an 18 year old
it has been 5days since i've turned 18.
nothing much changed except that i feel older and the responsibilities that i have to carry are heavier..
being older doesnt mean being wiser.
i still want to be young.
i'm still young!
there is this part of me that still wants to rant and be childish.
but the environment dont allow me to do that.
does anyone understand that i've never been young before?
does anyone know that i long for someone to take care of me?
does anyone know the shit that i've been going through for the past 18years of my life?
i know i always carry a smile on my face,
but does that mean that i'm leading a carefree life?
this world is never about yourself.
at some point in time, you will be living your life under someone else's expectations.
before that happens, treasure every chance that you have to make your own decisions..
dont be independent before you are supposed to..
it will only give you more pain and suffering. you'll know what i mean when the time comes..
emo shit. dont mind me.
sorry.
10:56 PM
Monday, December 08, 2008
always look on the bright side of life.
sometimes when things look bad, its usually a blessing in a REALLY GOOD disguise.
a beautiful diamond comes from an ugly looking rock,
all it needs is just some polishing and the beauty of the diamond will show.
things are really ugly now.
im gonna polish, polish and keep polishing until the shine is VERY SHINY..
11:18 AM
Sunday, December 07, 2008
hey..
to htet: go and die. COMMON TEST WEEK IN SCHOOL LA..
so yeah..its the common test week.
finished 2 papers (EBA and CMA).. still got 2 more until the end of next week.
just had the weirdest dream last night.
didnt believe that i'll be caught in that dilemma.
its just a dream la..right?
anyways.
counting down to 18 already. 2 freaking days more before i can register for driving tests.
also, another countdown started..
7 days cold turkey.
lets just hope it passes with a blink of an eye =)
i cant wait!
i can tell there's something goin' on,
hours seem to disappear..
everyone is leaving i'm still with you..
it doesn't matter what we do,
where we are going to..
we can stick around and see this night through..
- extract from "Young Folks"
by Peter Bjorn and John
11:15 AM
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
perfection.
what is it?
many crave for it..
and many think they have it.
if perfection is a colour, i think it wont exist.
there arent any colour in this world that will remain as it is no matter what colour is splashed on it..
the only way to attain perfection is when you are blind.
because only a blind man cannot see the stains that are made on the colour of perfection..
"no man is perfect, for everyone has a tendency to make mistakes here and there."
9:35 PM
Monday, December 29, 2008
hey all..
if you realised, i seem to have disappeared from earth for some time alr.
actually im at m'sia with my buddies..
it may seem fun and all but yeah..things are not what they seem to be.
this trip made me know many things. some good, some bad.
now i can only describe my feelings with 1 word: EMPTY
looking at others, i realise how different i am in various aspect of life.
though i might envy them, but i still love my life.
now, i lost about quite alot of things.
intrinsic and extrinsic alike.
some things can be bought again, but some cant.
when those things are lost, it may never be found back again.
sighs. all i can say is that im sorry.
maybe im a bad guy. maybe...surely..
10:33 PM
Sunday, December 21, 2008
another batch of CIs passed out..
with a blink of an eye, im alr a CI for 1.5 years.
yesterday i saw the video flashback of the new batch and had some thoughts of my own.
- i was once like those ppl, went into CIBTC with no idea of what we are getting.
- at that time, i felt that being a CI was a major thing and i cant abuse this chance.
- but i realised that i've changed.. i find that i dont treasure my authority as much as i used to.
- maybe i the feeling i had for being a CI was overstated, the change in me was obvious but not as drastic as i thought it was.
- there is virtually no difference in being a CI and a normal person, but some ppl really make that difference so obvious that it kind of irritates me.
to a particular group of ppl:
- we all carry the same "diamond" on our shoulders, what differentiates your group and ours?
- we treat your group with respect because we're nice, not because we have to.
- hope the relevant ppl understands this...
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
on a lighter note, yesterday was really fun with the area18 gang dominating the helpers section once again..
laughed, joked and got teased several times.
overall the day ended with loads of laughter and i got damn tired from all the laughings.
many unexpected things happened and i truly believe they all happened for a reason.
havent felt so good for a long time, thanks for the acknowledgements! =D
roughly wrapped up the day, details are kept in.. MY HEART! HAHAHAHAHA!!!
DIN TAI FUNG later for dinner!
WEIZI =)
2:37 PM
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
- i’ve installed some of the windows live suite.
- now im blogging through windows live writer, quite cool you know..hehe =P
- dont have to login blogger anymore!
- the new windows live messenger that comes with the suite works pretty well too.
- cool interface, but no messenger plus.. will try installing that again later.
- cheers to windows live!]
bulleted form. LOL
12:32 PM
Sunday, December 14, 2008
life of an 18 year old
it has been 5days since i've turned 18.
nothing much changed except that i feel older and the responsibilities that i have to carry are heavier..
being older doesnt mean being wiser.
i still want to be young.
i'm still young!
there is this part of me that still wants to rant and be childish.
but the environment dont allow me to do that.
does anyone understand that i've never been young before?
does anyone know that i long for someone to take care of me?
does anyone know the shit that i've been going through for the past 18years of my life?
i know i always carry a smile on my face,
but does that mean that i'm leading a carefree life?
this world is never about yourself.
at some point in time, you will be living your life under someone else's expectations.
before that happens, treasure every chance that you have to make your own decisions..
dont be independent before you are supposed to..
it will only give you more pain and suffering. you'll know what i mean when the time comes..
emo shit. dont mind me.
sorry.
10:56 PM
Monday, December 08, 2008
always look on the bright side of life.
sometimes when things look bad, its usually a blessing in a REALLY GOOD disguise.
a beautiful diamond comes from an ugly looking rock,
all it needs is just some polishing and the beauty of the diamond will show.
things are really ugly now.
im gonna polish, polish and keep polishing until the shine is VERY SHINY..
11:18 AM
Sunday, December 07, 2008
hey..
to htet: go and die. COMMON TEST WEEK IN SCHOOL LA..
so yeah..its the common test week.
finished 2 papers (EBA and CMA).. still got 2 more until the end of next week.
just had the weirdest dream last night.
didnt believe that i'll be caught in that dilemma.
its just a dream la..right?
anyways.
counting down to 18 already. 2 freaking days more before i can register for driving tests.
also, another countdown started..
7 days cold turkey.
lets just hope it passes with a blink of an eye =)
i cant wait!
i can tell there's something goin' on,
hours seem to disappear..
everyone is leaving i'm still with you..
it doesn't matter what we do,
where we are going to..
we can stick around and see this night through..
- extract from "Young Folks"
by Peter Bjorn and John
11:15 AM
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
perfection.
what is it?
many crave for it..
and many think they have it.
if perfection is a colour, i think it wont exist.
there arent any colour in this world that will remain as it is no matter what colour is splashed on it..
the only way to attain perfection is when you are blind.
because only a blind man cannot see the stains that are made on the colour of perfection..
"no man is perfect, for everyone has a tendency to make mistakes here and there."
9:35 PM
